Fuck, I just hopped on to Olas’s facebook page… New profile picture
My face just heated up, emotions poured back.. Why is he so cute? why must i feel like i will never find anything like him.. I mean im not talking about physically attraction anymore, with the people i have been just going out on dates with, no one is nearly as good as him. His beliefs, his morals, his personality, his care, his every molecule and atom that amkes up him is not matched by no one still….
I am starting to believe that YOU were the one that comes once in a lifetime… I really should be over you by now its nearly a year since we met. I HATE MYSELF. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF
This is just pathetic.. of me, I should be living well, that is the best way after a break up. but i have not been. I haven’t been exercising, I am graduated with no job, I’m seeing someone who views relationship and love differently than me…its like im on a desperate venture to gather as much as i can to fill this empty void which you have left me with
I am pure patheticness right now…nothing to aim towards to. Im just feeling really shitty now. really shitty, i cant even think of any other vocabulary for it. Im starting to think maybe im not even worthy for you anymore….Its so hard to be optimistic right now…
I just want to melt away and dissappear forgotten…like most pathetic things are in the world.