All I can do right now is LIVE the best I can. I need “actually” move on, not run away. I need not to be embarrassed of my self, and my achievements. I need to be happy, become stronger physically and mentally. Take more risks, and focus on myself. As much as this feeling of knowing that he has found another is crippling me from the inside out, making me feel as I am able to implode any minute..I have to strive to live happy and survive this.
I am resilient.. I’ll be proud of myself.. I will look back at this and be thankful for it as it is what will make me become the best self that I will be..